Do whatever he tells youJohn 2:5
Fiat 90 Discernment
If I can be honest, I wasn’t sure if I was going to do Fiat 90 again. I thought about only doing Fiat 40. I thought about not doing it at all because I remembered how hard it became as I went on. But I kept feeling a nudge to say “yes” to Fiat 90. Looking back, I feel like it was the Holy Spirit prompting me to give Fiat 90 another try. I constantly reflect and write about how Mary always said “yes” to God’s will for her. I’m always inspired by her perfect discipleship, and I always strive to be like her in every way. I think God is calling me to do Fiat again.
As I take an honest look at my life, I see the places where I’m flourishing and the places where I need God to breathe new life. I’ll use the next 90 days as a refreshing reset as I surrender every part of me and every aspect of my life to Him. Fiat 90 will give me a reason to do better with fasting and penance, and it’ll help me grow deeper in prayer. With Mary’s help, I want to be transformed and renewed as I learn to depend more on God instead of myself or worldly things.
What is Fiat 90?
Fiat 90 is a 90-day retreat for Catholic women desiring to grow closer to God in a deep and meaningful way. As we grow in detachment, women who embark on Fiat 90 seek to live in the world and not of it. This retreat is all about putting small sacrifices to make a big sacrifice, and choosing God in the little things so that we can say “yes” to Him in a big way. If you want to learn a little more about Fiat 90, check out this blog post that I wrote last year about it.
As I journey through Fiat 90 this year, I’ll praise God with my body, my mind, and my soul in these ways:
Body I will eat three meals a day with no snacking in between. I commit to the Heroic Minute, waking up and getting out of bed on my first alarm. I will not eat sweets or desserts. I will not have seconds. I will go to bed by midnight six nights a week.
Mind I will watch one TV show or movie per week. I will only listen to things that point me towards God. I will not make any unnecessary purchases. I will not gossip or complain. I will not multitask.
Soul I will have a weekly holy hour. I will go to confession once a week. I will say the 3:00 pm Memorare. I will do a 54-day Rosary novena. I will pray my Marian Consecration prayer every day.
Although there are more things that I can be doing with Fiat 90, like going to daily Mass, and fasting from social media, these are the things that I discerned that I’m realistically able to do. I think that cutting back a little on the standard Fiat expectations will help me to complete the 90 days more zealously and will help me avoid the inevitable burnout just a little bit. Instead of having several points of Fiat to focus on, I’ll be able to be more intentional about these few that I selected.
From a Place of Humility
I’m not doing Fiat 90 for me. I’m not praying and fasting intensely to prove that I can do it or to show how holy I can be. I’m journeying through Fiat 90 again so that I can open myself up to God. I want to encounter Him more deeply, hear His voice, and discern His will. While I’ll be putting in a lot of work, Fiat 90 isn’t about me. It’s about surrendering more and more to Him. Mary asked the children of Fatima to do penance for souls, so I’ll humbly do this because I want to listen to my Mother and please my Heavenly Father.
One thing that I want to do differently this year is sacrifice intentionally. Having someone and something that I’m sacrificing for will motivate me to keep going. I wrote down who and what I’m sacrificing for, and on the days that I feel like I can’t do Fiat anymore, I’ll look back and remember why I started. I want to approach Fiat 90 this year with a sense of humility. When Mary gave her fiat, she did so from a place of perfect humility, so I want to have the humility to say “yes” to God like she did. Humility is about thinking of others before yourself. With this in mind, my Fiat 90 journey will not be about me. I’m not embarking on Fiat 90 for my own sake. I’m doing this because my Heavenly Father wants to draw me nearer to Him, because my Mother wants me to pray, fast, and do penance so that souls can go to Heaven, and for a special person and intention that’s close to my heart.
Please pray for me and for all of the women who said “yes” to Fiat 90 this year.
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